I'm seeing, I can see
I woke up one day and, my eyes opened They opened so wide my tears finally came through For the first time in years everything I had ever questioned Everything I knew, was revealed I tried so hard to stop Happy thoughts, Happy thoughts I said But nothing helped me, it wouldn’t stop That’s when I knew, Acceptance Acceptance was the first door to step through I finally put end to part of my sentence This sentence of pain torture and pain But with those thoughts came a fee
3 days ago1 min read
I'm Okayy...
Sometimes you truly believe you're okay until you realize that you've been pretending to only yourself. You are not okay
7 days ago1 min read
Quit Looking at Me
Quit looking at me Why is everyone looking at me!! Am I this ugly? Do I have something on my face? Cuz if not, give me some space Stop asking if I'm okay If you're asking you already know the answer "No, I'm not okay" Your asking is only making things worse You're just pushing me away further
Jan 101 min read
Shared Weight
You come to mind like water falls through a drain, with so much ease It is not with ease that I walk through mud I keep being pulled back, something is pulling me back But it is not a person It is the thoughts of a person It is the blame I carry with me Pushing me deeper and deeper I want to release it, I release it Or that is what I tell myself until I get pulled back To release I say you hurt me, you hurt me! When in reality we hurt each other; we are both responsible
Jan 51 min read
The Little Girl in me
I am getting my hair done tomorrow Who knew a simple colour would be the beginning of the end of my sorrow I tried ignoring all the other voices But I already gave them all designated places Do I let them take over No I redesign the hierarchy I've created The little girl in me has been missing for so long She lost all her courage and ran away She has long black braids, and the purest soul I've finally found her and I embrace her and step into the song The song I've been wanti
Jan 21 min read
Sharp
How am I supposed to live when I’m surrounded by sadness. How am I supposed to be when my foundation isn’t solid, when my foundation is made of glass. I want it and I need it to reflect who I am, yet it only stabs me. There are so many shards, they keep cutting me. How do I stand up straight when I’m getting killed by my own foundation? I keep picking at the shards. But all it does is cut me somewhere else. Somewhere I didn’t know was reachable. It’s cutting me from the insid
Dec 21, 20251 min read
Have you ever needed to cry?
Have you ever needed to cry? Like really needed. Not like you're sad, and oh people cry when their sad . I’m talking about when your heart really aches. When you feel your heart going hallow. When you feel your spirit leave your body. Leaving only a shell with nothing left. The weight you carry is the weight of all oceans. Your body has never been heavier. And all it craves is to release. To let go. But the issue is if you open the gates, it might never stop. All it will do i
Dec 21, 20251 min read
